I AM...

I feel like I am crawling out of my skin today. The image I keep seeing in my mind's eye is exactly that - the shedding of another outer layer of me. Like the snake that I am, I feel very ready to shed my skin.

But I have no idea why and to what end and what it will mean and what I might gain and what I will have to give up.

In my fantasy I willingly surrender to the highest good for me and all sentient beings, and in return in I get EVERYTHING I"VE EVER DREAMED OF ON MY TERMS WHEN I WANT IT WITHOUT ANY HARDSHIP!

Oh yeah, I'm totally willing to serve humanity as long as I am totally in control of the entire thing.

I'd prefer to turn my back on this feeling of yet another layer of illusion readying itself to separate from me. Then nothing would have to change and I could stay wedded to my domestic bliss. BUT the feeling of moving upward, onward, toward something too magnificent to find words for has me seeking out peace, meditating, reflecting, burning incense etc etc.

And still I have no idea what is really happening or why. I would love clarity about the next step on my path. But I might not get it.

Of course, the astro-weather and imminent solar eclipse is adding if not entirely creating this sense of crucifixion and resurrection...

Cruci-what? I hear you say...Yes, that old chestnut. I have been reading about crucifixion and resurrection as the essential metaphors for the human/Soul journey, and how when we willingly embrace the idea of dying in life we gain everything...

Rumi says it better than me:

To die in life is to become life
The wind stops skirting you and enters
All the roses, suddenly, are blooming in your skull

I feel fear at the thought of this imminent death, this skin shedding...but behind the thinking is a deep, soul desire to merge fully with whatever it is that is calling me, to enter into union and oneness, to arise cleansed, reborn.

I want to write I am willing. But all I need to say is I AM.

Telling you where to stick it, in my dreams.

So, the moon is now waning, and coincidentally I am now recovering my health, slowly moving out of that otherworldly state wherein the boundaries of your life suddenly shrink to the four walls of the bedroom.

But the super moon did not leave without a parting gift. It has been such a tremendous time of inward looking that I am almost grateful that I was sick. If I hadn't been I would not have been peaceful and still enough to receive the gifts on offer. I'll write more about the full range of insights I experienced over the weekend, but this little treasure I want to share straight away...

This morning my beloved declared that he had had the 'stupidest dream'. Not stupid at all as it turns out. He saw himself powerfully walk out of a past relationship, one in which he had been treated terribly. That's nice in and of itself BUT the magic of it is, he's not the only one. I too had an incredibly powerful dream that I walked out of a horrible, disempowering relationship.

Simply, powerfully, deeply, truly my beloved and I both accessed the energy circulating right now to release ourselves from old wounds. How lovely, especially as we approach this new journey of parenthood together!

Tune in...there's still time to access the hidden gems for you right now.

Lying in the gutter, looking at the Super Moon

As this much talked about Super Moon rolls around (my moon - A Scorpio moon!), I am flat on my back, sick as a dog, wiped out.

And it is absolutely perfect.

As the astrologer, Michelle Proctor, tells us a Super Moon is a great time to go within, to do the work of the Soul. If external reality isn't too busy that is. My external reality has been charging along at an unprecedented pace for a pregnant lady. I have given myself a June 1 deadline to finish work before baby arrives at the end of the month. But that basically means cramming in 6 day working weeks and generally charging through any feelings of exhaustion. I have even joked about using my allocated sick days to take a break. But of course I haven't.

So enter the real thing. I am sick. And I am deeply peaceful. I spent the whole day in bed yesterday. Granted, not by choice, but the effect was still the same. I stop. I surrender. I connect to my internal reality. I get clarity around nagging thoughts I have been neglecting. And I blow my nose a lot.

Most importantly, I get to slow down enough to recognise the movement of the Cosmos, the drawing close of the Divine Feminine in the form of the moon. If you wanted my attention, O Divine One, you have it. I am deeply honoured to be present.

You can use this meditation to maximise the power of the Super Moon today or tonight.

Last night the moon

 Last night was the Pisces full moon and what a moon it was! I hadn't been paying attention to the moon cycle (or anything else spiritually related for that matter) when all of a sudden in the few days prior everything became about the path I am taking. The big questions were back front and centre after months of unrelenting busy-ness and they wanted some attention. This was no doubt facilitated by the awesome 2 week yoga intensive I am currently doing with the amazing Jesse Neave, combined with the Whole 30 detox I am now16 days into.

So I went to bed to meditate last night, and deep emotions were stirred. Deep old trauma from the past sat squarley in my throat and on my heart. And even though it whirled around inside of me as it is often want to do, last night I realised I am ready to let it go. Somehow, and I am not sure how it is going to happen (suggestions welcome!), I am ready to forgive myself. And I am ready because my invisible support network have been working overtime even whilst my focus has been elsewhere. That is the true magic of the Divine. Nothing you do (or do not do) changes your preciousness for one moment. You are never abandoned on this human journey.

At this very moment, I know I am at a cross roads. I'm not sure where the roads are pointing nor which path I shall take, but I know I am being guided. I know opportunities are arising and others are being moved out of my reach. I know that much of it is out of my control. All of it in fact. And I'm ok with that (mostly!). Because I know that in clearing out my old emotions, clearing out my body, clearing out my addictions, I'm imprinting the Universe with who I want to be and the Universe in turn will bring me experiences that match that frequency.

Sometimes we do need retuning to the frequency we really want to be at. And in the hubub of daily life we don't realise that we are playing more static than melody. The Pisces Moon Goddess energy can go a long way to helping you set the frequency of your soul music to the sound you want to be playing. Even in its wake you can still tap into this powerful force. In recollecting my life over the past few years I realise that September has been a time of great change for me. Go see what you can do with it.

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"The Sept. 12 Pisces Full Moon completes a mutable grand cross with the fateful Nodes of the Moon. Mutable signs represent changeable conditions- while a grand cross signifies a heightened tension. And the Nodes are considered shadowy points with karmic significance- especially as they pertain to relationships.

The Pisces-Virgo polarity is about work, health matters, service, sacrifice, and redemption. A Full Moon in Pisces may inspire in the best possible way, or simply reflect emotional states of feeling dreamy and out-of-sorts, or unfocused. Creative and spiritual inspiration is easier to tap into around this Full Moon. However, Piscean inspiration requires grounding and practical effort in order to bring actual improvements, and that's what Virgo is known for." 

Stellar Insights Astrology

Super Moon!

The term supermoon was coined by astrologer Richard Nolle in 1979, defined as

...a new or full moon which occurs with the Moon at or near (within 90% of) its closest approach to Earth in a given orbit (perigee). In short, Earth, Moon and Sun are all in a line, with Moon in its nearest approach to Earth.

Plan for the advent of the Super moon (Sunday 20th March) with a Releasing Ceremony or Meditation. The full moon draws out all that you desire to release. Transform your cellular consciousness by letting go and surrendering all that no longer serves you.

Write a list of all that you now choose to give up and at the time of the full moon, meditate on its release from every cell in your body. This frees up room for pure light to enter your being and fill you up. The light lifts you, raises you above the mundane and frees you to be all that you are.

Be free of the heavy energy that has suffocated your journey. Feel the lightness of your being as you move into rememberance of you.

For more info on what a supermoon is click here

Full moon ceremony

*This meditation can be done at any time. So even if the full moon has passed take this opportunity to surrender and release.

To prepare, write a list of ALL the limiting beliefs, thoughts, ideas and emotional wounds that you are ready to release. You can add to this peoples, places and things that no longer serve you and give the intention to lovingly release them. To begin the meditation, wait until you know you will not be disturbed.

Ideally you will be able to see the moon. But if that is not possible, use memory recall to capture an image in your mind. Sit, with your spine straight (phones off and door locked) in a space in which you feel peaceful. Light a candle if you cannot see the moon. Otherwise let the moonlight illuminate you. You may feel like burning incense. Incense cleanses space. Make sure to dispose of the ash after you finish meditating.

Begin by placing the list by the moon/candlelight. Breath in and out, slowly and easily, for at least three breaths and then allow your breathing to return to normal. Focus on the light, or close your eyes, and with each out breath give your heaviness to the light. Feel yourself breathing it out. With each inbreath feel the energy of the moon entering your body and filling every cell with light. Do this for as long as you feel guided to, but for at least 10 minutes. Know that everything you have written on your list has been heard and is being drawn out by the light of the transforming moon energy. She is cleansing, nurturing and renewing you. All that you are releasing is being replaced with vitality and new life.

At this point you may choose to ceremonially burn the list or hold onto it to remember what you have let go. Thank the moon for her magnificent transformative power. Be full of gratitude for all that you are and all that you have.

Full Super-moon coming

Plan for the advent of the full moon (Sunday 20th March) with a Releasing Ceremony or Meditation. The full moon draws out all that you desire to release. Transform your cellular consciousness by letting go and surrendering all that no longer serves you.

Write a list of all that you now choose to give up and at the time of the full moon, meditate on its release from every cell in your body. This frees up room for pure light to enter your being and fill you up. The light lifts you, raises you above the mundane and frees you to be all that you are.

Be free of the heavy energy that has suffocated your journey. Feel the lightness of your being as you move into rememberance of you.

For more info on what a supermoon is click here

The Divine Sisterhood

The Divine Sisterhood is working at all times to assist Planet Earth as she makes her evolutionary leaps. We would describe ourselves as working with the energy of the Moon. She is the Goddess energy and we are also the Goddess energy.

So if you would like to imagine where these messages are coming from, then picture the Moon, particularly at the time of her fullness. In reality, it is not necessary for us to locate ourselves anywhere, as the Sisterhood is pure energy. This is also your truth but Earth requires you take on the garments of earthly form in order to fully understand the journey that is required of you.

We are supporting you at all times and our energy is easier now than ever before to tap into. Do not hesitate to call upon us to aid you in your journey, for the time of the return of the Goddess is with us. Indeed, the Goddess never left you or your consciousness, but for a time, the residents of the Earth turned their eyes and ears from her beautiful Grace. It shall not be so any longer for it is in the balance of the masculine and feminine on the Earth that you have the key to understanding Peace and its attainment for all.

Imagine us as beings seated at all times in quiet yet powerful mediation. We are seated together, in a circle, although are number are infinite. We are devoted to your Peace, Grace, Well Being, Joy and Power. Know it is never different for we do not need to rest nor are we distracted from our task.

We are forever in your Service and ask only that you draw upon us so our impact on the Planetary Consciousness is ever increasing. We are one in spirit with you. We are the Moon, always watching over, drawing forth truth and the radiance of your being. We will guide you and we will show you the way.

Be at Peace.

In deepest gratitude,
The Sisterhood